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Damn, I'm so fucking tired right now. It was a long day and I'm just simply worn out. Some words might be outta place or mispelled cuz I can barely keep my eyes open.

I was almost late to my Math class, and that would've really sucked. I was stuck behind this fucking garbage truck the whole way there. I was listening to the Rob Zombie remix c.d. so it kept me amped and like "gotta go, gotta go now." I felt like I was hopped up on the "Q" or something. So I get there, and I mean I'm right on time. 5:45. We had a quiz today which we have every day. It was our first quiz of the semester. Our teacher is going like the speed of light with his lessons and sometimes not even going over stuff. He says this stuff is like the arithmatic part, and should be done fast so we have more time on the Algebraic shit. Makes sense... I semi understand. But then our quiz today was harder than the homework. I got the homework and shit down, but then on the test the problems were 4x harder! I hate math, I'm taking Basic Math 2 for the second time, cuz I suck and Basic Math is for Basically stupid people. I fit right in.. So I'm taking the quiz and I'm like shit, I gotta piss I need a cigarette and this is really hard. I hate fractions, there were a lot of fractions.. :-( I know how easy is that right? And how lame do I sound? Well fuck it, I admit my weaknesses and faults and that's one of them. I'll cry if I want to dammit!

So then after Math Class I had volleyball. I've played on this college volleyball team longer than this coach has been around. So my fucking Seniority pulls rank on this bitch! Okay, so I'm a proud smoker. I like smoking, I plan on smoking till the day I get pregnant, then I'll prolly start back up again. Until that day, and until there is a law that denies me the right to smoke I will smoke! Well last year the same coach allowed us to take rest stops during the way to the game to have a cigarette. These games are like 1.5 - 2 hours away. Anyone who's a smoker can verify that while in a car that long and not being able to smoke is like a personal hell. This bitch on the team which I dierly hate made a huge dibocal about half the team smoking saying it looks bad on the team that we smoke. So we had no problem with pulling off at a rest stop and smoking. We didn't blow the shit in her face. I have more tact than that, unless you push me too far. Well this year my coach informed me that I am not allowed to smoke while a volleyball thing is in play. Like meaning not during the drive. I'm like doode!! I'm in a car for 1.5 hours, then I play three games of volleyball possibly being 4 hours long, then I have to get back in the care for another 1.5 hours without smoking? You gotta be fucking kidding me! I need a cigarette when I'm doing something that is exertful. Or even a daunting task. I'm smoking as we speak!! So he brought it up during practice tonight at a team meeting. He said are there any problems........... Well......... I fucking raised my hand and announced I am a proud smoker, to those on the team that didn't know. I totally disagree and think it is unfair. I would see if I'm in highschool and a little girl that was unable to smoke due to the law. But I'm not! I'm almost 21, there are no laws YET in Ohio that says I can't smoke in a building. (not that I would while playing volleyball) But give me the fucking common courtesy as you did last year to pull off on the side of the road and smoke. I'm only asking for one fucking pit stop to calm my urges. They wont wanna see me play volleyball if I don't have a cigarette. I dont think any of you would either. It'll be like me in a desert seeing marages, I would be seeing little cigarettes surrounding me and taunting me. Thus that'll be me not concentrating. Would they want that no? Just give me a fucking smoke!!!!! Well the team in general had no problem with me taking a pit stop for a smoke. There is at least one other person on the team that smokes (she didn't even back me up, I'm like wtf girl? Say something in "our" defense) The team was fine with it. And that little cunt of a bitch from last year was all like, "Yeah I don't have a problem with that." I'm thinking, bitch the team already hates you so that's why you're being all hypocritical now so that somebody doesn't pull a Tonya Harding on your ass! You cunt faced whore!!

So I got my way.....

I need a pop. I'm thirsty, some reason I just got perched over ranting. I dunno, but I am and I wont have a coke in my hand till my boy comes home with a pack. So in the meanwhile I'll mope.

I need a massage....
All that bitching made me need another cigarette, I'm going to crave my addiction by lighting up! I won, hahahahah!
<3 Jessika