Everywhere I look all these beautful girls have such emotional and chemical imbalane problems, it's refrehsing to know I'm not th enly one but it's a bit eye awakening to realize just how fucking well I handle myself. But I've had a chemical imbalance since I was 12 and didn't have any family support or medicine for my issues and learned to do what I had to make myself.. well, appear normal and feel a bit normal too. My heart sincerely goes out to all of you who have any of these fucked up issues and if anyone ever justs wants to talk about it I'm definately down.
A little under 2 weeks and my birthday party will be in full swing. It's a Pirate Party and Sea Legends theme. I'im doing all the decorating and what not, it's going to be a goddamn blast. And Mikey from seven shot screamers is performing as Clownvis so I'll now have live entertainment as well. It's going to be on Saturday April 7th, if anyone wants info on attending PM me, I'm not comfortable posting the info.
I'm better. As better as can be. My innards are still incredibly fucked and the pain each day is still aweful but I'm dealing.
These days I find myself day dreaming a lot of just picking up and relocating myself or backpacking. It' snot something that's financially feasible(sp) for me, but it's a lovely thought.
All the things I posted about a few months ago and was incredibly excited about never ended up happening and I have no idea why. I've lost a bit of my drive, that I admit with the sudden 2 hospital visits and mass medical bills, but that's not why it didn't happen and I'm still figuring it out. But I'll try to keep my spirits up.
Ever feel like when you look around and evaluate your life you really don't have any friends? I completly feel that way. I don't feel like I have people that if I suddenly needed a ride somewhere or whatever that I could call up and they'd be down for it and hanging out or whatever. I have a brand new motorola KRZR and noone calls me. Noone ever comes to my house. I end up calling everyone and seeing what's going on. Considering all of these things I feel incredibly alone. A part of me feels that while I lived in Delmar I at lest made a fw frineds and could get out and do thing son my own. I don't drive and everything was in walkin distance fo rme, now that I'm back in South City I feel completely isolated and stuck in the house. And very very lonely.
Ooh! Netflix needs updating.
A little under 2 weeks and my birthday party will be in full swing. It's a Pirate Party and Sea Legends theme. I'im doing all the decorating and what not, it's going to be a goddamn blast. And Mikey from seven shot screamers is performing as Clownvis so I'll now have live entertainment as well. It's going to be on Saturday April 7th, if anyone wants info on attending PM me, I'm not comfortable posting the info.
I'm better. As better as can be. My innards are still incredibly fucked and the pain each day is still aweful but I'm dealing.
These days I find myself day dreaming a lot of just picking up and relocating myself or backpacking. It' snot something that's financially feasible(sp) for me, but it's a lovely thought.
All the things I posted about a few months ago and was incredibly excited about never ended up happening and I have no idea why. I've lost a bit of my drive, that I admit with the sudden 2 hospital visits and mass medical bills, but that's not why it didn't happen and I'm still figuring it out. But I'll try to keep my spirits up.
Ever feel like when you look around and evaluate your life you really don't have any friends? I completly feel that way. I don't feel like I have people that if I suddenly needed a ride somewhere or whatever that I could call up and they'd be down for it and hanging out or whatever. I have a brand new motorola KRZR and noone calls me. Noone ever comes to my house. I end up calling everyone and seeing what's going on. Considering all of these things I feel incredibly alone. A part of me feels that while I lived in Delmar I at lest made a fw frineds and could get out and do thing son my own. I don't drive and everything was in walkin distance fo rme, now that I'm back in South City I feel completely isolated and stuck in the house. And very very lonely.
Ooh! Netflix needs updating.
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I posted some new photos on my blog from this past weekends shoot. I hope you will take a look at them and see if you like them.