jessielynne

As much as I wan't to give up on this.. I'm terrified of losing it. Funny how that works...
I keep reminding myself that this was his life style prior to us being together. I should have known better getting into this. Why did it not hurt nearly as much before? Why has anytime I have cared about someone before, that is frequently gone.. it NEVER hurt like this. I guess thats how I know this is love. I find myself lost with out him.. Things almost seem unbearable. Regular day activities are undersireable because he isn't here by my side. I miss him so much... Sleeping has become a task with in itself.. So has finding a bit of appetite and motivation to actually take some sort of care for myself. Forcing myself to eat because I know if I don't chances are my immune system will only crash. I miss the simplicity we share and I long for it.. As of tomorrow one more week and he will finally be here by my side. I can't even begin to say how much I miss him and yearn for that day. It will be a nice HUGE sigh of relief when I see him arrive at baggage claim at the airport. I can not wait.. I'm crossing my fingers that customs won't take all that long. The sooner it takes the sooner I get my hug from my most favorite boy in the whole wide world. my babu.