So... geez, I don't have a fucking clue why I can't stop thinking about earlier. It should be equivalent to the other times, right? Well, it doesn't feel like it, for some reason. Something about this morning... In a way, it was just different.
So... I went over near Korry's, to the park next to his house, and we hung out in my moms van in the front seats talking about this and that. And I felt shy, and girlish. And he knew it. And he leaned over and kissed me. He put his hand on me and kissed me the way he does, and I adore that kind of kiss, and how come I haven't felt it before?
Oh, man... Making out. I don't know why it's so fucking good. Probably because in the last few months of my relationship with Will, I just really wanted to make out with him. And he didn't seem interested.
And now Korry. He wants to make out with me. He kisses me first. He asks me to come over. And he puts his hand on the back of my neck and holds me there and bites my bottom lip and pulls me toward him. It's just what I fucking needed.
And then we moved to the backseat.
And we made out.
And his hand was still on me. On my side, on my leg, rubbing my leg. We did a few scandalous little things, fooled around.
But I didn't get to fuck today. I guess I'm not too sad about that, it would have been nice, but that's not what I needed. Plus I can't now anyway.
But, afterwards.
I had to leave for school soon.
And I couldn't.
What the fuck was he doing to me. I would look over at him and he would look at me. Intense fucking eye contact. So fucking intense. He would just look at me and smile and lean in and kiss me all over again. And it would stop, I would get shy. I would end up looking at him again, and he would kiss me again. And sometimes, I would kiss him first.
It's almost impossible to stop kissing him.
I had to though. I had to get to school. I had to have a cigarette. I had to put some chapstick on. I had to calm down. I had to just look at him again. I had to kiss him all over again.
But finally... we were outside the car. Standing next to each other. And he hugged me. First of all, I haven't really been hugged in a while. Second of all, what the fuck kind of hug was that? It kind of startled me. It was... such an excited feeling hug. Like maybe he hadn't seen me for a while. I don't know, I was standing there, and all of a sudden, bam, his arms were around my shoulders and he hugged me close. So I hugged back. And we hugged for a while, but it felt good, I needed it, and I caught myself thinking "Oh, he's taller than I thought, he keeps turning out to be taller than I thought." And I don't know why I keep expecting him to be shorter. But I'm glad he's not, because I noticed, while I hugged him, my lips were near his neck, so I kissed it, and he laughed again.
Then I went to school.
I had my cigarette.
I put on some chapstick, because he made my lips kind of sore. Ha ha.
And I had a good day, thinking back on it one in a while, just because I was still kind of startled.
But I can't stop thinking about feeling good like that. So I thought, maybe writing it would help.
But I need some sleep.
Hmm... sweet dreams to me. He he.
So... I went over near Korry's, to the park next to his house, and we hung out in my moms van in the front seats talking about this and that. And I felt shy, and girlish. And he knew it. And he leaned over and kissed me. He put his hand on me and kissed me the way he does, and I adore that kind of kiss, and how come I haven't felt it before?
Oh, man... Making out. I don't know why it's so fucking good. Probably because in the last few months of my relationship with Will, I just really wanted to make out with him. And he didn't seem interested.
And now Korry. He wants to make out with me. He kisses me first. He asks me to come over. And he puts his hand on the back of my neck and holds me there and bites my bottom lip and pulls me toward him. It's just what I fucking needed.
And then we moved to the backseat.
And we made out.
And his hand was still on me. On my side, on my leg, rubbing my leg. We did a few scandalous little things, fooled around.
But I didn't get to fuck today. I guess I'm not too sad about that, it would have been nice, but that's not what I needed. Plus I can't now anyway.
But, afterwards.
I had to leave for school soon.
And I couldn't.
What the fuck was he doing to me. I would look over at him and he would look at me. Intense fucking eye contact. So fucking intense. He would just look at me and smile and lean in and kiss me all over again. And it would stop, I would get shy. I would end up looking at him again, and he would kiss me again. And sometimes, I would kiss him first.
It's almost impossible to stop kissing him.
I had to though. I had to get to school. I had to have a cigarette. I had to put some chapstick on. I had to calm down. I had to just look at him again. I had to kiss him all over again.
But finally... we were outside the car. Standing next to each other. And he hugged me. First of all, I haven't really been hugged in a while. Second of all, what the fuck kind of hug was that? It kind of startled me. It was... such an excited feeling hug. Like maybe he hadn't seen me for a while. I don't know, I was standing there, and all of a sudden, bam, his arms were around my shoulders and he hugged me close. So I hugged back. And we hugged for a while, but it felt good, I needed it, and I caught myself thinking "Oh, he's taller than I thought, he keeps turning out to be taller than I thought." And I don't know why I keep expecting him to be shorter. But I'm glad he's not, because I noticed, while I hugged him, my lips were near his neck, so I kissed it, and he laughed again.
Then I went to school.
I had my cigarette.
I put on some chapstick, because he made my lips kind of sore. Ha ha.
And I had a good day, thinking back on it one in a while, just because I was still kind of startled.
But I can't stop thinking about feeling good like that. So I thought, maybe writing it would help.
But I need some sleep.
Hmm... sweet dreams to me. He he.
timtoxic:
That sounds really fun. I can't believe I missed your B-day. I haven't been online much but you already knew that. So.... Happy B-Day. Sounds like you got what you wanted. 
