jessewestend

I suck.

Bad guy. Bad Boyfriend.

Felt like a jack ass for being so bitchy becase Ashley wasn't the one I was mad at, and yet she is the only person who could have read that. Matt and megan and Jonzee and Heather and Savannah and everyone i fucking hang out with seem to screen my calls or just not answer and half the time they try to act like they never knew. I just want people being honest and she has never been anything but honest and... I miss her alot. I'm bad at all of this caring without caring too much shit. I feel ugly and worthless sometimes when I'm given too much time to think. Like I had convinced myself that Ashley hated me and was never going to answer because I was only in bed for a day and half with my wisdom teeth but ofcourse everyone is different. i"m an ass I"m an ass I'm an ass.

And no she isn't poison. She's probably the nicest person I know. Even if she does hate me for being an asshat.