jessewestend

I'm such a homo for Frau Frau. I looked hot tonight. You all missed out, just me, the foreigner and the Clientielle de Autistic.. Smoke. Sigh. Coffee. Phone. Porch. Sigh. Smoke. People from Haiti are strange. Its true. Who Likes 5 AM journals? I don't care. Don't eat that its plastic. No Paul we don't drink from the faucet. Ms Iowa smiles like an Angel, did you ever notice that? You know Kiki sometimes it seems like I was a big deal in your life, like we shared something... other times... it seems like all we shared was a motel on Walnut St. And YOU, you chicago queen with your judgements and your superiority. I'm not 19 anymore bitch. Get that straight. How did you manage to get even more nuerotic? O' Buddha Grant me peace. O' Buddha Grant Release.... I still have that napkin Mallory. the one I wrote that ridiculously long prayer on, frantic, repeatly reiterating the need for detachment over and over because you were in the other room sleping with that ridiculous boy and all I had was a pen and your musician friend's beer. The beer helped. This is what its like in my head, i just jump from bed to bed, memory to memory name to name, blame game eternity. Oh but don't you know how to fuck... too bad it wasn't enough. Can't sleep, too much to ignore. Do All you Haitians go to work to talk loud and Snore? Colonial French bastard. SHUT UP. Paul is awake, walking in circles, chewing his shirt .... the more I work here the more he resembles a mirror...Autistic is only one letter away from the art that I make... Sardonic smiles, sardonic.... with fire in the eyes, because you'll all think I'm angry or crazy. I'm having one hell of a time....

Hmmm,Time...

Death...

FUCK.
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and tonight babe, the whiskey is on me, and the driver's seat... and the arresting officer

Edit # 3... Still awake.. 10 to 8 am... I'm gonna drink/smoke myself to sleep... I'm so bored I'm going through my itunes for "weak" songs to delete...