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jessewestend

Nashville

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Monday Dec 12, 2005

Dec 12, 2005
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"if you smile at me, i would really understand... cuz that is something everybidy everywhere does in the same... language."

anxiety becomes me lately,
how can i leave all this love behind?
thats what everyone asks me,
thats what i ask myself.
I answer simply,
because I have to..
I just fucking have to.

I'm happier now than I have ever been
but
its a good thing I'm smart enough to know that
all this newfound appreciation,
all this love and understanding,
all the breaks,
and big tips,
and meaningful looks,
all the atonement,
and all the pleas for 22nd chances
its just because I'm leaving.


1. I just want to drive
2. Or smash my head through a wall
3. and upon arriving renounce my name
4. and become Owen
5. and swear off sex
6. and continue to stay healthy and in shape
7. and away from drugs and stress
8. but I think Savannah is probably right, I can't run from the past. It'll catch up with me.
9. I need to fail, baby, I need to know
10. So I can come back to Nashville and take control. So I can make this my real home.

you should have loved me when you had the chance.

pictures soon.
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thefreddy:
Go out there and do your thing! It sucks that you have to, in a sense, leave your old life behind, but think of this as a transformation, dude. You gonna meet new people, new opportunities and a new life. Shit, I WISH I could move but I'm stuck here for now.


Simmer down and man up homie!

HELL YES!!!
Dec 12, 2005
luz:
hey man, i know what it's like to leave everything you know and just go away. i did the same thing a few months ago--moved 1200 miles away. but of course, it's not the same[/] as what you are going through...but similiar, maybe...

nonetheless, you've got a great journal. always a good read.
Dec 12, 2005

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