I actually shot 2 sets for Suicidegirls, I was super excited, I felt like I rocked my sets and by the time I got my sets back people who I had considered friends, but I now know better, chipped away at my self confidence and made feel so negative about my looks and made me feel ridiculous for even considering trying for Suicidegirls because that was clearly something that was only for got pretty girls.
In under 2 weeks 2 girls I considered my dearest friends absolutely shattered my self confidence, so the disk with my sets got put in a purple cd case on a shelf to gather dust.
Here's an actual sneaky look at some of what I shot that day 7 years ago
I'm so angry that allowed 2 petty little girls stop me from submitting these. I'm also mad because look at how beautiful I was! Why did no one let me know how hot I was 😂😂😂
Fast forward a few years I start talking to a lovely photographer and I inform this photographer about how I'd always regretted not just biting the bullet and submitting a set to Suicidegirls and that photographer was the stunning @casca . We met up a week later to shoot some pretty pictures around Liverpool city centre and she let me pick her brain about Suicidegirls the entire time and put me at ease. Also look at how pretty she made me
A week later I'd booked a date for our first set shoot and the rest is history and I've had the pleasure of her shooting 4 sets of me and I'm always amazed by how pretty she makes me. Here's some shots that I absolutely adore from our sets together
I know I'm just a hopeful and I might not be pretty enough or hot enough to ever turn pink, but that's ok with me, I just love being part of this community, I've got some of my old self confidence back. I even dusted off my camera and starting shooting sets when my friend @circe told me she wanted to join Suicidegirls and that I better sort my shit out and get kick myself into gear or she'd do it for me 😂😂😂😂
I shall try to dig out that old purple cd case and if I find it shall post one of the sets up as a sort of mini set/album next week.
@rambo @missy
