jess_a_boo

I absolutely dread every tuesday now. I know exactly how i will feel when the day comes and its really shitty, and i have to keep myself so busy that i dont have much time to think. Its been three weeks, but it seems like yesterday or forever, who knows anymore. All i know is a breakdown and cry for hours on tuesdays, i wish i had someone to talk to who was feeling what i was feeling right now, and could help me feel a little bit better, and less selfish about the whole situation. I want someone to tell me its perfectly ok to cry and feel how i feel, cause they are feeling it to. That i'm not over reacting. Am I? Well whatever, its 4:45 now and i've been cooking since 8:30 this morning because my dad is having 2 friends over, the woman he is in love with and her husband. So i agreed to donate my day to making an amazing dinner. So far i have proved this statement true. But i haven't burned myself yet on something hot other then water yet, so something is bound to happen. I'll keep you posted on the details. <3