mind that I would like to get out you know. And without people in my fucking family hearing. I've been really down lately. About six months ago I lost my virginity to a girl I loved, who said she loved me, and had another boyfriend the whole time. In trying to get past that, which I think I have, I started doing more dating. But the stupid rules are so freaking crazy now. I've been out with this amazing girl three times and I'm not even allowed to ask if shes seeing other people? This is nuts. I was not made for this.