jeribelle

Sometimes, it seems like I mentally hurt myself. I wonder if I do it on purpose, just to feel something.

Cuntspray.

I am a fucking crazy little thing.

So...I felt a whole lot worse for 2 days

And now I feel a whole lot better

"See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and two are just ahead of me."

So I'm in this really bizarre place in my mental universe.

I am currently engaging in Equestrian Therapy, which is therapy where you care for and engage with horses. There's also cats and dogs and baby kittens. The farm is huge, with a nature path and everything.

Today, I put my head on a horses stomach and listened to her breathe. It was wonderful for...
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I keep picking at the gaping wound in the back of my mouth. The gauze they put in there to stop the pain keeps falling out and so the first time I pulled it out. This time, I pushed it back in with tweezers, but now I can't see it and so I put the tweezers in the hole to try to make sure it...
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Today was obnoxious.

I ran out of pain meds and had to call in a refill. Luckily, I got them.

Then this extremely foul taste/stench started wafting from my wounds. It tastes and smells like poop, and nothing really allieviates it. Salt water and listerine sort of help.

So I probably have Dry sockets or whatnot. whoo hoo.

Last night I woke up twice with...
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I napped ALOT today. I also was able to eat a Dorito just now with not very much trouble I'm so on my way to recovery

I put a picture of me as I look today, unshowered, swollen and spaced out on pain meds, in my Mental Misadventures pictures folder. Enjoy

Today I feel much better. I am being more mindful of my pain medication schedule. Although I'm really afraid of taking all this ibuprofen. I don't want to destroy my kidneys or whatnot. And the Vicodin was kinda fun at first but now its kind of annoying me. I don't really feel like being a space cadet right this second.

Ah, fuck it. Gunna go...
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I am already bored with:

TV
Family Guy DVDs
Crossword Puzzles
Internet
Napping
Eating

God I hope this ends soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I got my wisdom teeth out this morning. My mouth is extremely sore, obviously, but other than that I feel fine