jeribelle

So I'm in this really bizarre place in my mental universe.

I am currently engaging in Equestrian Therapy, which is therapy where you care for and engage with horses. There's also cats and dogs and baby kittens. The farm is huge, with a nature path and everything.

Today, I put my head on a horses stomach and listened to her breathe. It was wonderful for me.

But in the same sense, it feels like I'm going to have to feel a whole lot worse before I feel better. It's like fixing an internal organ. You can either leave the organ to rot and fuck up the rest of your body, or you can have painful surgery with months of recovery to repair the organ and save yourself. I guess I've opted for the later. Wish me luck.