Hmmm...no sex, no b/f or g/f, no problems? Is it all that simple? If i were to just give it all up would i be happier without that warm feeling you get when you hold someone so close that your heart beats begin to match eachothers? I dont know...
I feel like i know what i want...but at the same time that goal is so far away that it doesnt matter. Its funny becuase tha goal is simple...i want to be happy. Why is that so much to ask for?
I remember when i got into the Emo thing, i kinda did it for a look and to fit in, but i wasnt really sad about anything, acutally i was as happy as i could be. My mother had sobered up and i had thought i found the girl i would send the rest of my life with...
after about our 6 month of being together, her depression i guess began to rub off on me and i started to feel her pain, i dont know if it was because of love or becuase i was so attached that i made up this pain inside me. But i know now that it was love and now that we are done...it hurts so much worse.
Ive had alot of people tell me recently that i should go on and be happy becuase i deserve better. I really dont think they are right on that. Im not the one that deserves better she is. this girl changed me for the better, she helped me become myself. She helped me whenever i was down....she is perfection.
oof...celibacy...
I feel like i know what i want...but at the same time that goal is so far away that it doesnt matter. Its funny becuase tha goal is simple...i want to be happy. Why is that so much to ask for?
I remember when i got into the Emo thing, i kinda did it for a look and to fit in, but i wasnt really sad about anything, acutally i was as happy as i could be. My mother had sobered up and i had thought i found the girl i would send the rest of my life with...
after about our 6 month of being together, her depression i guess began to rub off on me and i started to feel her pain, i dont know if it was because of love or becuase i was so attached that i made up this pain inside me. But i know now that it was love and now that we are done...it hurts so much worse.
Ive had alot of people tell me recently that i should go on and be happy becuase i deserve better. I really dont think they are right on that. Im not the one that deserves better she is. this girl changed me for the better, she helped me become myself. She helped me whenever i was down....she is perfection.
oof...celibacy...
rokette:
Yea...I don't like that whole lack of sex either...
_spectre_:
Just be thankful for experiences and people like that...I hate hate hate a guy who played a big part in shaping me...lol obviously at the time I didn't...now he's a dick, but I am grateful everyday for what he gave me. Hehe and deem your celibacy as self induced...for some reason that seems to get the people I know laid! heh...Have a great day 