So, here i am. Just thought i'd leave a better post up or something. Things are still horrible, but i'm used to it now. Numb inside, the world is completely changed and every day is like the movie Groundhogs day. I have to remind myself that she is gone and will never exist again, and it's hard. I'm finally staying sober for some of the day which is basically due to the fact that i'm broke atm. and this sobriety is a good thing. it's just hard to really deal and feel the things i do without a drink or ten. whatever. what fucking world. cruel and not remorseful. there is no god, there is only energy. no one is reincarnated. no second chances. you die, and it's game over. hold the ones you love close, i keep telling people. be overbearing, love those you love, HARD. Cos you never know when they will be stolen from you. that's all for now.