jennynicole

I'd like to start off by apologizing for my last update. When I feel myself getting like that I really need to not allow myself near any communication devices. It only causes me deep regret later on.

I always try to interpret every single fucking aspect of my life... and as it generally turns out. I overreact. I overanalyze. I force anyone close to me to run and hide because at times I turn into the most disgusting self-loathing, self-pitying, spoiled little brat imaginable. And then I beg for forgiveness from others when really I need to just learn how to control myself in the first place. To stop placing the blame on the world that most certainly has better things to do with its time than make my life what I would believe to be a living hell. I guess my excuse as of this time, if I should offer any sort of excuse anyways, is that I am young and stupid. And I am still learning.

So.. I'm really trying to cool it. And I'm sick of saying the words, but I don't know how else to say it. I'm sorry.