I'm thinking about taking a break from my life as I know it. Possibly turning off the cell phone and computer for my entire spring break. Maybe a week with no so called "communication" will help me to realize that all you have is what and who are in your immediate life and this whole computer chatting thing is just pretending that you can exist outside the realm of your immediate world.
Here are some quotes/lyrics to ponder in my absence if you so wish:
"So naive
I keep holding on to what I want to believe
I can see
But I keep holding on and on and on and on"
"All I ever wanted was to be good. And its all turned out so bad."
"I tried to sneak myself through, tried to get to the other side
I had to patch up the cracks and the holes that I have to hide
For a little bit of time even made it work okay
Just long enough to really make it hurt
When they figured me out and it all just rotted away
Don't you fucking know what you are?
Go on get back to where you belong!
You better take a good look cause I'm full of shit
With every bit of my heart I've tried to believe in it
You can dress it all up, you can try to pretend
But you can't change anything
You can't change anything
In the end"
You think you know, but you have no fucking idea.
Here are some quotes/lyrics to ponder in my absence if you so wish:
"So naive
I keep holding on to what I want to believe
I can see
But I keep holding on and on and on and on"
"All I ever wanted was to be good. And its all turned out so bad."
"I tried to sneak myself through, tried to get to the other side
I had to patch up the cracks and the holes that I have to hide
For a little bit of time even made it work okay
Just long enough to really make it hurt
When they figured me out and it all just rotted away
Don't you fucking know what you are?
Go on get back to where you belong!
You better take a good look cause I'm full of shit
With every bit of my heart I've tried to believe in it
You can dress it all up, you can try to pretend
But you can't change anything
You can't change anything
In the end"
You think you know, but you have no fucking idea.
It isn't drugs for depression that you need. You need to take a bad grade sometimes because you didn't feel like studying, you need to yell not talk, YELL at Chrissie when she fucking pisses you off, not worrying how she might be mad at you afterwords, besides, why should you hold your anger inward so that she doesn't have to feel anything?
You have to be careful Jenny. Girls like you often end up in abusive relationships, being verbal or physically attacked because they blame themselves when confronted with bullshit. The other day you couldn't even tolerate me being mad at you. Its normal, its natural. You need to breathe and calm down....L8er....AJ