jennynicole

I feel so young and old at the same time. I know I've experienced pretty much nothing of life, but I don't really know what all I care to experience. Then again, I act like an old fuddy duddy.. for Christ's sakes.. I stayed up til 1:30 working on a puzzle today. A FUCKING PUZZLE! I don't really ever go out. I don't really do the whole drinking thing, except occasionally, and quite honestly I'm more likely to just casually have a drink at home than I am to go out and just get trashed. I'm not really into the club scene. I can't go to bars cause I'm not 21, but I'm not sure if I'd want to anyways. I go to work, I go to school, I come home and sit online for hours then either work on homework or puzzles.. or crocheting. yea... so i'm 19 going on 90. wtf? Part of me wants to be a kid. wants to go out and get trashed, party it up and be a slut. just for the hell of it. The other part of me wants my own home, a steady career and just a simple life. Maybe with a kid or two, maybe a wife or husband, maybe a few pets. (none dependent on the other.. I've always pictured myself as a single mom anyways)

I don't know who the fuck I am or what the fuck I want lately. Someone please fucking straighten my demented self up!