Monday Feb 06, 2006

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Opened up it's revealed!
Savour this
Dont get lost in a lie!
Hit or miss
Beside, myself, with doubt, push on
What's to come must be proved
Focus bliss
Charcoal stares
One foot at a time
Smear those lines
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
Certainty
Is not at hand
I can't keep my eyes shut
You talk not to listen
I thought I found
What I always wanted
Bear with me
I thought I found
What I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted
I got what I wanted
I got just what I always wanted


I guess the problem with getting what you think you always wanted.. comes when you really had no fucking clue what you want. I'm confused, empty, and needy. Imagine that. Something new and fucking different.

.. just feeling like i'm not anyone's number one.
gamma:
I'm convinced that we don't ever really know what we want...we just go along trying different things until we find something that fits and stick with it until something that's a better fit comes along.

But I have learned that you shouldn't wait around for someone to make you their #1 ... be your own #1 instead.
aj_paradiselost:
Good choice of song lyrics baby, obviously KITTIE. So which one of us are any fuckers actual number one. Christ doll, you, Chissy, the world. Don't you get it? Its all about selfishness. Feeding the longing of the self and then onward to achieve another form of fucking happiness. I'll call you in a few...L8er...AJ

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