jennynicole

Well.. not much news here. The industrial is doing just fine. Already I forget that I have it, cept occasionally when I'm trying to fall asleep and I lay on it wrong. Called off work Monday to spend it with my girl. We went shopping and I got some totally awesome deals on some stuff. Maybe I'll take some pics and let ya all see. I NEED to clean my room this week. I go back to college next week already. Where the fuck did my "break" go? Oh... that's right.. it went to working all the time and family fucking gatherings and doing online work for my winter course.. and wasting time sitting in a high school english classroom watching the most boring thing ever, aka my future job. I'm starting to wonder what it is I'm rushing to graduate for. I'll probably just start right in with grad classes when I'm done with undergrad next May. Maybe grad school will lead me to an area that I have a stronger calling for than teaching. I know I would be capable of teaching, and doing a damn good job of it. But I don't know if teaching English is really what I want to do. I might get my masters in counseling. Just a thought I'm bouncing around in my head for now.

Maybe if I know how to help other people work out their own personal problems, I'll be more capable of working out my own. Who knows... but wouldn't that be grand. I guess my approach on depression, etc. is that if I learn enough about it.. I'll be able to help myself, I'll be able to understand what's going on wrong with my mind and fix it. Or maybe understanding is really all I need. Maybe if I can understand myself I can reach a place of complacency. I dunno...

I got a few good dvd's yesterday.. Natural Born Killers, Donnie Darko, Girl,Interrupted, and the Little Rascals. haha. You should've seen the look the cashier gave me. It was one of those.. I totally did not expect someone (wearing khaki's, a black cable knit sweater, charcoal peacoat, makeup and fashionable black boots, and of course curly cute hair) to be so fucked up in the head. She looked so confused I wanted to just laugh my ass off right there and ask her if she was scared. Then again.. I wouldn't have had to ask anyways... I could tell she was.

I guess that's all for now. I'll either find my digital camera or use my dad's and take some pics pretty soon here. Gotta show off the goodies I bought Deciding what new dvd to watch tonight before I drift off to sleep. I'm thinkin its gonna be a Donnie Darko night. Its just been one of those kinda days.

"All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
These dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world"


OH... and a quick aside. I found out that "hurt" by Nine Inch Nails.. is a Johnny Cash song. TOTALLY SHOCKED the shit outta me. Maybe I'm the only moron who didn't know that though.