jennynicole

Didn't do much for New Years, but I'm fine with that. Crissy came over, along with my cousin Linz and sister. I was bartender.. and sorry but I don't specialize in making things taste good... I specialize in getting people drunk. And that is what I did. haha. The rents bought whatever liqour I wanted so it worked out. I was a pussy and just drank strawberry daquiri's. Mom made a great dinner, prime rib and lobster. I don't eat seafood.... but the prime was good. Then the rents left and Crissy, Jackie, LInz and I watched the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory while we drank. Then watched the ball drop on NBC and that was about it. I like low-key nights, so it worked out.

I made it through the holidays without getting terribly depressed. Now that they're over though, I can't help but feel melancholy. Its not even that I'm sad that its not Christmas anymore, or anything like that. Maybe its just the fact that I already feel overwhelmed with work and school, and its not even Spring semester yet. Or maybe its that shopping is making me realize that I'm bigger than I ever was, or that Crissy and I seem to be to that boring stage in a relationship. I don't know how to keep things fun. I can't help it, but the stress in my life affects my mood, and she needs to not take it so personally. I'm just feeling alone I guess. I'm sick of all the advice, I'm sick of being told I'm young, I'm sick of being told to lighten up and not stress out so much. I know all of these things, and having them reiterated for the twenty millionth time is not going to make me suddenly reach some epiphany. I just want to not be criticized. I want to be taken seriously. But.. whatever. I dunno. Maybe I won't feel so shitty later and I'll update with a smile on my face. For now though... this is all I have.



aj.. sorry I didn't call yesterday. She was with me all day, and was pissed at me the night before... and I didn't want to give her more of a reason to be mad. Hopefully we can talk soon.