jennybean981

I actually came home wednesday night, he hugged me and picked me up and we had good sexy time yeah boy!

I'm going to look for a place in a few weeks and move out, give him space!

Sooooooo Im still really looking forward to taking some pictures some good old sexy pictures me and jamie are going to take pictures of us, real artistic photos of us intertwined.

Ummmmm I dont wana say it, you know when you feel sooo stupid saying something? Wellll.... if aunt flow hasn't come to visit me tomorrow..im going to take a pregnancy test...i think...i feel so stupid! like why spend money on it, i wont be, im being silly to think I am!!!
Its just ive had cramps for 2 weeks, maybe more, and no flow, and my breasts are sooo tender, they have been for about 4 weeks, im only 2 days late, ive got a cold now ughhh.
I really dont think I am, Im just thinking its weird that I have symptoms of early pregnancy but im not...i cant be....

What if? oh what if... i dont know. Im terrified at thinking how Im going to tell Jamie.. he'll be mad and disappointed, he has a pretty sweet life and I will be ruining it... but i dont want to have an abortion, i dont think i would really. hes always said he doesnt want kids until he can give it everything he can....he will want me to have an abortion. ughhhhh. what to do...


but im not. ifeel stupid!! i bet ill come on my period tomorrow or sunday and ill feel soooo stupid. i dont know why else im having all the cramps and stuff.