i talked about resident evil 4 a couple entries ago... so i feel the need to link to this penny arcade comic. though, it's not actually about resident evil 4. but watching chris and anthony play resident evil 4 reminded me of this comic. why? because you shoot birds and they drop jewels and stuff, and when you kill villagers armed with pitchforks they drop gun ammo and grenades (why the fuck are they comin' at you with a damned garden implement if they've got fucking grenades on them?!). anyway... yeah.
gary came over today. we went shopping, and i finally found an anime dvd i'd been hunting for. and then we watched the punisher (not as bad as i thought it would be - rather amusing at parts, like when he "tortured" that one guy) and the village (sucked worse than i thought it would: i fucking guessed what "the twist" would be... m. night has gone down the tube and he's getting comfy there while he's at it).
tomorrow i'm going up to jon's place. wee!
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i hugged myself. "i'm afraid, jason."
he sat up beside me. "afraid of what?"
"afraid of being..." i hesitated, tried to find the words, and finally, "i'm afraid of being consumed."
"you're terrified of belonging to just one person, aren't you?"
i shook my head. "not of belonging to just one person, jason, of wanting to belong to just one person."
"why, why is that so frightening to you? most people spend their lives wanting exactly that, i know i do."
"i never want to put my whole world in any one person's hands again, jason."
"so you'll hold a little of yourself back from everybody."
"no," i said, "i'll hold back a piece of myself for myself. no one gets all of me, jason, no one, except me."
"i want to be consumed, anita. i want someone to come along and burn me up."
"you're a romantic," i said.
"you make that sound like a dirty word."
"not dirty, jason, just useless."
~ cerulean sins, laurell k. hamilton
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i thought i'd share that exerpt from the book i'm reading right now. i read that part the other night, and it really hit home with me. it resembles an internal debate i have with myself on a regular basis. i'm a romantic at heart, and it's difficult to escape that, though i seem to definitely be trying to as of late. is it working? pffft, probably not.
gary came over today. we went shopping, and i finally found an anime dvd i'd been hunting for. and then we watched the punisher (not as bad as i thought it would be - rather amusing at parts, like when he "tortured" that one guy) and the village (sucked worse than i thought it would: i fucking guessed what "the twist" would be... m. night has gone down the tube and he's getting comfy there while he's at it).
tomorrow i'm going up to jon's place. wee!
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i hugged myself. "i'm afraid, jason."
he sat up beside me. "afraid of what?"
"afraid of being..." i hesitated, tried to find the words, and finally, "i'm afraid of being consumed."
"you're terrified of belonging to just one person, aren't you?"
i shook my head. "not of belonging to just one person, jason, of wanting to belong to just one person."
"why, why is that so frightening to you? most people spend their lives wanting exactly that, i know i do."
"i never want to put my whole world in any one person's hands again, jason."
"so you'll hold a little of yourself back from everybody."
"no," i said, "i'll hold back a piece of myself for myself. no one gets all of me, jason, no one, except me."
"i want to be consumed, anita. i want someone to come along and burn me up."
"you're a romantic," i said.
"you make that sound like a dirty word."
"not dirty, jason, just useless."
~ cerulean sins, laurell k. hamilton
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i thought i'd share that exerpt from the book i'm reading right now. i read that part the other night, and it really hit home with me. it resembles an internal debate i have with myself on a regular basis. i'm a romantic at heart, and it's difficult to escape that, though i seem to definitely be trying to as of late. is it working? pffft, probably not.
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Thats an interesing quote....though kinda sad. It seems romance is dying a lil more each day....and I am very much so a romantic
That really hit home with me, it's nice to know I'm not the only person dealign with that struggle. Thanks.