jennrose

ede came over today. first time i've seen him in like... a long time. jon and ede finally got to meet each other. ah, i missed ede's wicked sense of humor. it's great how he takes really wrong jokes just way too far. we played some video games, and i did disastrously bad at project gotham (oh god! a woman driver! oh no!). although, i fuckin' whooped ass at doa ultimate and soul calibur 2, but i really can't brag about it since he'd never played doa before. he blocks a lot, and he actually manages to block my combos, which makes it difficult... until i throw his ass into submission. gotta love the throws. the anal rapage ede suffered was quite amusing, ya know, to an evil person... god i love being me sometimes.

jon is over, obviously. we've been watching lots of the fourth season of angel. we just started it last night, but we're already more than halfway through the season. god, it's beautiful. it's a good season. the character interractions and the writing are all just so great. and gwen is a really awesome character. i really like her. and dear lord is she hot. i wouldn't mind owning some of those outfits, either. i look good in red. *winks*

i in my utter brilliance have once again picked up smoking. all hail the great and wise jenn. indeed. ede said that in star wars, yoda wasn't talking about the dark side of the force, he was talking about the tobacco industry. "... forever will it dominate your destiny" and all that other stuff that i can't remember because i can't quote movies for shit. so yay me and my nicotine cravings. you know i feel stressed because i don't even really feel bad about picking up the habit again. go stress!

talking to jon, i have come to realize something. stress and tension are like a tangible entity in my house. it like lives and breathes in all the rooms, in the walls. the tension my parents breed now resides as a permanent resident in this house. i hate it. i feel it all the time when i'm home. i hate being home. jon told me he could feel it the first time he walked into my house. i'm used to it from living here for so long, but it affects me more and more. i try to be home as seldom as possible these days, because i just can't stand being here. this place drains me of energy now. anywhere but home is good.

i forgot to mention in my last entry... anthony plays guitar. and he finally forced me to listen to him. i'm always kinda shy about hearing people's music. i'm not sure why. but yeah, he finally cornered me into listening to him... he's actually really good. i was surprised. and he has a very nice voice. *smiles* my favorite band is green day, so he did me the pleasure of butchering my favorite green day song (thanks, really, thanks ). he butchered it on purpose, though, just to fuck with my head. when he wasn't butchering songs, he sounded really really good. teehee it's nice.

ya know, usually i dress to look good, but i have no fucking cares about fashion in the end. right now i'm wearing my new pinstripe pants with a pink happy bunny shirt and a long-sleeved flannel shirt over that. beautiful, 'eh? i'm the goddamn queen of fashion right here, bitches.