jennirae

okay...so I am now living in the country....and its taking some getting used to...but I love it...having my own little house that I can do whatever I want to is lovely....I am getting ready to take a little trip to Hawaii....I will be on there for 10 days I think.....I am not sure whether I want to go...Do you ever have those things come up that you only kind of want to do..but not enough to actually do them?....That is how I am feeling about hawaii....I hate flying...in fact ...I cant stress that enough...Hate isnt even a strong enough word......maybe part of it is that I am just now settling into my new place and working out the dynamics and just dont feel ready for a vacation...some may think I am highly overdue for one tho..(Louie)...and maybe that is it...I just need to go and relax......have some fun.....it seems the less complicated my life becomes the harder time I have dealing with it......and that makes no sense....hrmm...I dyed my hair black again today...that always makes me feel new....maybe I need to get a few things for the house....or buy a new swimsuit?.....maybe I am just having a fucking strange day.....whatever it is...its irritating......I need to just take a look around..a deep breath....and relax