jenigurl23

a few nights ago, i decided i needed to hang out with other ppl besides my boyfriend. i think he needs a break from me. were in eachothers faces all the time. plus, with all the drama that has happend a few weeks i think im the one who needs to get out. i think somewhere in the relationship, i lost myself. thats no good. i used to be so independant. i never imagined id be so hooked on someone, emotionally, that id turn into this. this is the 1st time ive ever been in love though. i guess i just didnt know how to handle it. ive seen the light i guess and i wanna be the old me.
so, tonight i spent the evening at a bar with a new friend, los. there were a few ppl there that i dint know. i did ok. even though i was only there for a short while. i had fun too.
its hard trying to "seperate" yourself from someone you love and adore so much that all u wanna do is jump inside of them to be as close as possible. this love stuff... it aint easy!