jenbat

Sometimes I really really miss being a kid. Your friends were just the people you had the most fun with, no bills, no self esteem issues, no thought of how your actions may affect EVERYONE else. I miss the fun amd innocence and simplicity.I miss that sense of understanding. Ykno that sense of " While I may not know much and I ask lots of...
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Holiday blues have been getting me down lately.More so than any year I can remember. Not sure why. Could be mainly my unhappiness at the new job. I just really feel like I dont fit in there. I dont click. Makes me feel uber self aware. Moneys getting a little tight at the worst time. Im worried about my dad. I wicked miss my sister....
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Happy Holidays to all.

Im not at home in my head....

I hate Spiders. And I hate cars. And I hate the overwhelming need for money.

I love Matt. And I love Matt. And I love Matt.

Will I never be enough?
Not what you had in mind, I know
Even years later still not fitting your mold
Cant or wont be the cookie cutter you want
Do I give up my will for the sake of love?
Is it easier?
No thoughts or decisions of my own?
To be a shell
To be hollow
To be void
Is that what it...
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Le suck. Had to go to the ER yesterday. Been sick for like a week and then yesterday I started coughing up blood. Tired to go to a cash clinic cause I have no insurance and they said no you have to go to the ER we dont treat stuff like that. Yea. So now I have lost hours at work for which I wont...
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Wowzers!!!! What a fuckin birthday week! Super awesome! I shall recap!

It all started tuesday (day before my bday) :
I came home from work and as soon as i walked in the door Matt was all "close your eyes!" so then he lead me around the house and spun me around a bunch of times and then said " Ok there are presents hidden...
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Yeah for parties! Im getting drunk! Tummy is nice and warm! Wooo!

Alright kids and kiddies! My bday is coming and with it comes a drunken night of debauchery known as a party! Sat Oct 15th starting at lets say 9pm? Anyone interested in coming let me know and I'll hook you up w/ directions and what not.

edited cause Im a dumbass.....sorry

Life is strange. I may be heartless and cruel in the mind of others, but in my head certain things make perfect sense. A girl I know died recently. Not a friend of mine but in my social circle none the less. Im not sad. In fact I feel like shes better off and didnt have a chance to completely screw her life up with...
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" Did your heart ever want to ask something but your head was too afraid of what the answer might be?"

That oddly enough is a family guy quote and i might have heart and head reversed i cant rightly remember but in my case they seem one in the same so it doesnt matter much.