jelly2

sitting. about to go watch a.i. again. i really like that movie. alot of people voiced a severe hatred for it, but there is still something about it... almost all the movies i have seen lately are longer than shit (lotr, ttt, a.i., godfather ect.) but i like that. sometimes you need 3 hours to get the point across. it is good to see movies that long, though i am not exactly sure why. there are alot of things i am unsure of. i just know that i like them. i have never been really good at expressing those sorts of things. it is not really a limited vocabulary (though that is part) just a feeling that the words are not enough to describe it. art, movies, music. some of the things that are really personal to me are abstract. it is the feelings that they evoke and typically they do not use a standard vocabulary. for instance, songs without words. paintings without subjects. prose without rhyme or reason. i am not sure why these things appeal. to me. oh yeah cause i am a spacey, feely cancerboy, that's why. i am the person that ayn rand likes to make fun of in the fountainhead. yes i thought the main character was an ass. i just can't really identify with that character too much. though alot of architecture certainly does suck. well, luckily i am not too much of a hippie, so i have decided to skip the whole beard thing and shave. i like shaving. i dunno why. it isn't just cause eris told me not too!! beards seem kinda creepy. it makes kids cry girls cringe and birds die. well not exactly, but there is just something weird for me about them right now. i have had the beard thing going before, but i think that there is a time and a place for such things. besides, it makes look like a hippie is what it does ed. i love ferris bueller. alrighty then. i am getting boring so i am gonna get on with the rest of my day and go make some risotto. the rain is coming and i am very excited. i am sick of this sunny cold windy bullshit. it is time for some rain and some freakin lattes. and bike riding. i have so much winter/wet bike stuff and have not gotten to use it. i paid good money for some neoprene gloves and booties so i could ride in the rain. i miss the rain so. ok really now i am going. may your day be beautiful.