jellibean

So I was wonderin about DEVOTION
I dont think I know what it really is yet
I look at my parents
and that is devotion
I dont think I know what it is to stick with somethin
or stand by someone
even if it kills you
or worse numbs your soul...
hmmm devotion

I've always felt I was devoted to my job aka my kids
I love all those lil buggers and would gladly put myself in harms way if it meant protectin them
I dunno, it's a funny concept to think of
people are so caught up in their own self
I think the concept is lost on myself and my peers
maybe we'll figure it out as we get older?
maybe some of us never will

DENIAL
another one of those things I was thinkin about
it is crazy how strong your brain will ignore/dismiss somethin that would break your heart
ex--a child's mother where i work has been rumored to have been pregnant--shes not even 20 and was 17 when she had her first kid
and yes on monday she had her 2nd child and HADNT TOLD HER PARNENTS--she called them up after the child was born
now it was totally clear that this girl was pregnant
her belly was HUGE
denial

So my questions (a la voltaire) for whoever
--What are you devoted to in your life?
--What are you in denial about?

PS
I GOT MY HAIR DID! (cut/dyed) and its UBER hot
I loooooove it
AND I bought my very own surfboard!!!!!!!!!!!
(pics of the do and the wood to come soon)
sooo stoked for the summer
and on that note--MY GOALS FOR THE SUMMER:

Make extra cash
ride lots of waves
get naked on the interweb
and find a summer someone who will throw the football w/me, push me in the water, and be an all around weekend drunk w/me @ the beach
b/c kissin in the ocean rules
and before I move outta this damn town I deserve @least that much heheh