jekyllandhyde

Very long story short, I'm terrified that the depression issues I had about a decade ago may be returning. I barely survived them the first time around, before they randomly went away for no reason at all, and I'm not sure if I can endure them again.

I just really hope this will be temporary.

I had a terrible bout with depression that lasted about a year. I knew it was purely situational and would get better once I started to get some money in and become able to get out and socialize again. While I'm aware that things can always revert to the dark days of the past, I've been cleared to get off the meds and am currently not in therapy with the approval of the doctor.

I knew going in that I'd likely be the last man standing. My pain tolerance is extremely high and my ego is even greater. I still have a chip on my shoulder because of the difficulty I had finding people to play with when I got back into the public scene a little over a year ago.

After all, I was playing hard with a stone cold Goddess like Lyrical privately, yet was having trouble getting my foot in the door in the local BDSM scene at first. I've sure made tremendous progress since then. Now I need to find someone to share the rest of my life with.

I wish you all the best. You seem like a strong person, which I'm sure will help you get through this latest crisis.