I went back to see some friends in Indiana last week, and for my best friend's wedding (though I'm about 90% certain her new husband is gay, and I'm afraid she'll be the cover wife who has to get divorced at 35, but that's another story). I have several different groups of friends back home, but I really only felt like a part of one of them (and that was only two other people). I liked seeing everyone again, but I just knew I didn't belong with them anymore. When I moved from my hometown to Lafayette before my junior year of high school, it took me over a year before I realized I didn't belong with my old friends anymore; now it's happened in less than half a year.
It's not such a bad thing, I suppose, but now I don't know what to do. I don't have any real friends in Texas right now, and if it weren't for my girlfriend finally moving down here I'd be completely on my own. I can function without friends (hell, I went through most of high school that way) but having had several groups in which I felt like I belonged for so many years in college is making not having any again a bit harder to adapt to than I figured it would be.
In other news, I've officially begun the process of applying to grad schools. I've applied to Pittsburgh and I'm in the process of applying to NYU, but the applications always ask to list the publications my stories have been in. Despite numerous submissions (to be fair, they were all to high-profile magazines), I don't have any. I knew the competition was going to be stiff for the top schools on my list (Texas, Washington, NYU) but I seriously hope that it's just kind of expected that the people they accept have already been published. So yeah, fun times....
It's not such a bad thing, I suppose, but now I don't know what to do. I don't have any real friends in Texas right now, and if it weren't for my girlfriend finally moving down here I'd be completely on my own. I can function without friends (hell, I went through most of high school that way) but having had several groups in which I felt like I belonged for so many years in college is making not having any again a bit harder to adapt to than I figured it would be.
In other news, I've officially begun the process of applying to grad schools. I've applied to Pittsburgh and I'm in the process of applying to NYU, but the applications always ask to list the publications my stories have been in. Despite numerous submissions (to be fair, they were all to high-profile magazines), I don't have any. I knew the competition was going to be stiff for the top schools on my list (Texas, Washington, NYU) but I seriously hope that it's just kind of expected that the people they accept have already been published. So yeah, fun times....
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Are u really serious, u truly think this chicks husband is gay? What a fuct up situation, jeez. I dont envy your position as a friend to her, are u gonna .. uhm .. mention it to her, maybe? I hope she isnt too blind to the situation to have just married a gay man, lol, maybe she just likes femme guys, who knows?
Moving in your junior yr of HS must have been so shitty!! In HS u think your friends are the most important thing in the world, that must've been so tough on u. Hell, it was tough on me moving when I was 21 across country, so I can relate a bit, but you're just moving all over the fuckin place, arent you? Hopefully you'll get accepted to the texas university so u dont have to jossle your surroundings so much. texas has some really awesome ppl there, really. A lot of my closest and coolest friends came from there, and I still talk to a lot of ppl online that are from TX that rule, so maybe you're just not going out as much as u should or going to the right places? Who knows? Didnt u join the sg tx grp? ttys hun