jekyllandhyde

You know what? I am so much better than the two girls I've pined after over the last several months. I can't even count the number of ways I've handled situations better than they have. And as much as I care for them, neither of them can really understand a lot of the shit I talk about. Why would I want to be with someone who writes me off as "caring too much about things he can't affect" or "too dark"? Excuse me for actually giving a shit about something other than myself.... And really, I'm not even all that dark (well, I suppose I am, but I have a purpose!) Yeah, I'm cynical, but no one really understands why (well, one or two people do, but they're both guys, and try as I might, I just can't swing that way). I'm cynical and sometimes bitter because I honestly think things could be better in the world than they are. If I thought it was all a total loss, and a worthless fight, I wouldn't give a shit about anything; I wouldn't be pissed off about anything because there couldn't possibly be any other way. To me, that seems like a rather hopeful (albeit naive, perhaps) outlook on the world. So to hell with anyone who can't see that about me. I don't need that kind of perspective with me anyway.

So why can't I make myself believe all that?

Random thought of the day: Fill in the blank of this four-letter word to describe a woman:

_UNT














I put "Aunt," I don't know what you call came up with....