Before you read this I have to say this just like my last blog this is not a happy one. So there I warned you. So here we if you read my last blog here it is .
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I've decided to do a new blog...........I'm sure that nobody really cares.to begin with. So here goes. I've decided to quit a few things. I've decided to quit being a nice person and start being an asshole. Maybe that way more goods things will happen for me.I've had quite alot of bad things happen to me in the last 12-13 months. I know I was a nice guy 96% of the time,so why?
I've also decided to quit drawing becuase I'm worse now than ever. I've taken breaks fromdrawing beforeand gotten back in the swing of things. But this time is differant. Maybe something is telling me to give up something I've been doing ever since I was a kid.Something I use a way to express myself.............(bad example),something I use as a stress relief.
I've decided to stop helping out. I've done alot and gotten little thanks for it.I've done a few things for a few people some thanked me and others acted like I never existed. And my personal favorite they don't thank me later on. Like the remembered and went "oh crap jeffy did that".
Also I've decided to stop looking for that special someone.For the simple that it's not going to happen. They say that there's someone for everybody............."BULL FUCKING SHIT".What they mean is that there someone for some people and not others. That's me I'm the other. Sometimes I think I should just kill myself................hmmmmmmmmmmmm sounds like a 50/50 idea there. Why is it that I problems talking to people? Even the ones I work with.Why is it that when ever I meet a girl that I like (i.e high school,work,online,SG............which is really wierd but anyway) thety either are seeing someone eles (which happens alot) or they live a milliom mles away (also happens alot).And that htere a 99% chance I will never ever meet them in real life.
So that's it and oh yeah I wouldn't know what to do. They say"follow your heart". Again more b.s that's just a bad idea and would end well. It would be something like me saying or doing something akward. And then BAM I blew it.
So that's that Iquit drawing,being a nice person,looking for anyone special and,quit carring about myself and just about everyone I can think of (just leaving some family memebers and people her nand some on myspace :whatever And anything that would resort in me being happy.And.............oh wait that's happend/happening already.Wait a minute why am I writing this? Does anyoneeven care.....................noone noone didn't think so.
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Damn I wish I could stay mad all the time. That sounds like something that might make me happy.
Depsite all the people saying to cheer up and hang in there and I hope things have changed since you wote your last blog etc..... (there was about 15 or so). But I still feel the same toward things. Like the the whole giving up on finding someone special and the giving up on drawing. I want to thank everyone for all the kind words but I still that way.
On another note if you didn't like that you are really note going to like this. My 12 month membership ends next week but I'm not going to renew it. At least note yet I think I'll save the money for a "rainy day". If you want to renew my membership you can but I prefer if you didn't. But then again your choice so do what you want.So I don't know what to say............I'll see you sometime next year.
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Name:Jeffy
Age:22
Hgt:5'10-5'11 I'm not sure
Wgt:165-176
Job:Military
Hobbie:going to the gym,doing nothing,drawing
Plans for Christmas:
Pictures drawn in the last 4 weeks:none
Plans for the future: I dont know
Also I want to say to Dorsal
I don't know what else to say so if you have anything to say here.............
