jeffvader

look, it's the return of HEDWIG!! i've seen that movie way too many times. john cameron mitchell looks sexy as a girl....

i found some good shoes for my feet but i can't afford them right now. i have money for them but i think i'm going to wait until next month. my pay is barely going to get me by with my bills. it's time to start canceling shit. shit it may be time for a new job already

my fasting blood sugar was a little lower than when i was last tested but my doc said that i basically have type 2 diabetes but i can control it by diet. he said all i have to do is lose weight. it sounds so simple. it probably is and i'm just making it harder than it seems.

my little obsession called jenna thinks that i'm being led astray by the united church of christ because they accept anyone [read: gay folks, too.] as member unlike her church. she is dead set against gay people being involved in church. she is a biblical thinker not a critical thinker. her church, sonrise, is so hostile...and they don't believe they are hostile. all they know is the truth of god's word. i pointed out some inconsistencies to jenna and she said that she wasn't "in the word" enough or that the example was an old way of thinking.
yet, i still want to get with her....that makes no sense. why am i so obsessed with someone who has told me that she doesn't want me. am i just a giant child who wants what he wants but doesn't actually know what he's getting? and her view is so narrow. it's something about her and that face of her's. maybe my view is narrow. why can't i see beyond her? well, i'm not that narrow...i see beautiful women all the time but would they want me...?

i'm not a vegetarian yet. but, i definitely need to start being stricter with myself and my diet. i've been such a pig or cow or any other animal that should eatless and jog more