jeffvader

thanx again to all who wished me a happy birthday...it was an ok day. the weather was crappy but i did go out for lunch. then i spent the rest of the day falling asleep in front of the tv it's time for something new...sometimes i sound like a sex crazed shallow ass...that's only part of me and i am keeping a journal on a porn site, so, my brain isn't going to be running on all cylinders. but honestly, it does get a little boring saying the same thing every day : ooh you're hot, you have lovely..., i want your....
predictability is bullshit. it's not that i'm lying to these girls, it just feels like there is no reward....

what the hell am i talking about?

edit....woke up on the wrong side of the bed and strolled to church. big mistake. one of the reasons i go there occasionally is because of jenna: she's that damn cute . i just wanna grab her and lick her every where...but, of course i know that would be wrong. the other reason i USED to go for was spirit. religion can be good for the spirit. but the assholes that run this church are OBSESSED with gay people. i could go there on 3 random sundays and hear shit about gay people. it's like if they don't say something bad, gay people will flourish and eat their fucking children but in a nice way. their whole rap is the same as every other mega-church: homosexuals are as criminal and dangerous as alcoholics, drug addicts, pedophiles and just criminal shit. why do i take offense...because i've been a suspect all my life: my ambiguous nature. and no one knows what makes gay people gay....so why do i continue to go to this church of the poisoned mind: jenna....she is my obsession.