Four years is a damn long time to be away.
I don't know where I could possibly even begin catching you all up on my life, so I'm just gonna give the highlights.
Basically the reason I disappeared for so long is because I sank into drug addiction. That and stripping/prostitution. It's a slippery slope really when you think you have it all. One day you just wake up and realise that you have nothing.
It wasn't all doom and gloom though.
I spent some time in Thailand in 2016 and honestly it was one of the happiest times of my life
I bumped into some South Africans (Representing in my SG top, of course)
LOVED the food there!!
Visited some temples
Partied with the locals
Made some friends
Tried to eat healthy
Met the incredible @popcorn Suicide!! (She's AMAZING)
Overall it was just such a wholesome experience.
The shit started when I came back to South Africa and decided to become a stripper
I turned into someone I never thought I'd be.
The money was more intoxicating than the drugs and suddenly I found myself lost in a world I didn't belong in and trapped by my own pride.
I lost all contact with my family. I thought I was just gonna die there.
It took a tragedy to make me come to my senses.
I lost my mother to cancer.
(This is the last picture I got to take with her)
My mother was my whole life.
As painful as this experience was, it was the wake up call I needed to sort my life out.
By then, there was barely anything left of me.
But somewhere in me I found the strength to carry on and I am happy to say that today I am 15 and a half months clean from drugs and alcohol
And also looking MUCH healthier!!
I've managed to begin getting my life back on track and also started modelling again
This journey hasn't been easy.
Some days are more difficult than others.
But every day it's worth it.
And I know, somewhere up there, my mother is looking down on me and she is proud.
I love you all so much.
It's good to be home.
