My girl got a single speed bike, and we're trying to find me one. I was gonna build one, but I found that it would cost about 600-$1000 and I allready have the frame. And those parts aren't even new. That's ebay used prices. I dont want to spend more than $400 for a bike off ebay. I gave up for like a month, but...
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Tonight was good. I found a treasure that my girl and I have been searching for since we got here. And I found a second treasure as well. I went with my friends down the street to this new bar that opened up. A few guys I know were playing. It was a jam of drummers, turntables, a bassist, and whomever wanted to get on...
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cricket:
thanks
faye:
I love the comments you leave me.
My plan right now is to go home, work my little ASS off and move, probably out west....Vancouver is where I'm leaning towards but I'm not sure.
My plan right now is to go home, work my little ASS off and move, probably out west....Vancouver is where I'm leaning towards but I'm not sure.
Tonight starts my work week. After my recent thoughts and feelings about my job being worthless and a waste of time, going back has a different feeling. Last night I was at the tanning salon waiting for my girl while she tans. I read these travel magazines filled with exotic places, beautiful things, and exciting adventures that I have yet to experience. The only other...
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blyss:
The good thing is that you are mindful of what you are doing in the present, which in the future will go a long way. I sometimes wonder my all out pursuit for pleasure in the present, will lead me in the future.
madi:
Happy valentines!!! 
My thoughts as of recently...
1) I have never had a job that will further my life or give me what I want out of a carreer. That's why they've all been JOBS, not carreers. If I take other people who have degrees from college as examples, then going to college to get the carreer I want is just as risky as playing craps. In...
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1) I have never had a job that will further my life or give me what I want out of a carreer. That's why they've all been JOBS, not carreers. If I take other people who have degrees from college as examples, then going to college to get the carreer I want is just as risky as playing craps. In...
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deacon_:
You have nothing to lose. Start a business. When you do something you love, you don't care if you make money. People will see your passion and gravitate to you and hand over money.
newmiguel:
aren't you moving up here?
I finally got good sleep. It was much needed. I actually think that I've slept too much. I still feel tired and out of it though Im awake. Now I need to get out and do something active. Something fun and new would be great as well. My favorite album of the week is Handsome Boy Modeling School. Anything Dan The Automator or Prince Paul...
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I dont any work till next friday. I need to take the opportunity to get shit done. Im thinking about switching jobs. I dont know. Im gonna talk to my boss and see what's up on my bartending. Today I feel like everyone is wierd. I dont feel very social today at all. I would like to be on my own little island or on...
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frankly:
i'm so feeling the way you were on sunday. want to be in my own tiny gerbal bubble or something....
bartending is kind of a trap. i know. if there's anything else you could do, i would. while you still can!
bartending is kind of a trap. i know. if there's anything else you could do, i would. while you still can!
deacon_:
Thanks for the Birthday note. The PBR and Med made it very entertaining
Havent been on here in a while. Alot has been going on. I got infected tonsils (it's still huge), I went to court and got put in a diversion program, my cable modem got shut off, then when it got turned on my computer was fucked. I cant check my email, log into msn explorer or msn messenger. It sucks. 90% of the reason I...
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porkmaster5000:
If you have a internet router go to that companies website and they'll have a easy fix in there help page.
If not your best bet is to call your internet company and they'll give you specific number to change on your modem
set up and after that it will be cake
If not your best bet is to call your internet company and they'll give you specific number to change on your modem
set up and after that it will be cake
dark_templar:
Hey try to do a repair "install" with your windows cd it wont erase anything but it will install all your basic windows files..... either that or reinstall your web browser... 
So I was reading the Mercury Newspaper last night. They were listing winter activities to keep in shape during the winter. There was also an article about how working out at gyms suck ass. How basicly you're doing something that isnt fun under fluoresant lights packed with people you dont know. So, basicly your mind isnt motivated. I was actually thinking about that the other...
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mmonic:
im too wimpy to play dodgeball. i like trail runs but its not so much fun in the rain.
it was nice meeting you, did i say that already? homegirl and i got a little crazy. we tend to do that. that shithole is the perfect place, dont you think?
it was nice meeting you, did i say that already? homegirl and i got a little crazy. we tend to do that. that shithole is the perfect place, dont you think?
deacon_:
Hey Brother, Whats the Happs?
I just took some online depression screening tests. They all said that I have severe depression. I was actually suprised by this. I think my bad points are bad temper, pesimistic, and I worrry and overanalyze alot of shit. Then again, I would say Im generally a pretty mellow guy who has a decent sense of humor. Hhm 
I dont know. Im feeling very contemplative...
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merry:
Just so you know... a lot of those online tests you can take to find out if you're depressed are sponsored by drug companies, who obviously have a vested interest in convincing people they're sick. If you're really worried about it, see a real doctor. Either way, I hope you feel better soon.
faye:
I really wouldn't take the online tests too seriously...because they're just so unpersonal. And depression and any other medical condition is pretty personal.
I know I don't talk to you everyday or anything and I know that shit kinda always has you down and stuff but I don't think you're at the point where you need meds and it's not something that you want to get into if you don't need them. Once people start on them they usually end up depending on them for the rest of their life. And most don't see anything wrong with that but there is SO much wrong with it. With something like depression...I really feel like once you've been there it always lives inside you in some way shape or form and I know better than anyone that it can come back to haunt you time and time again. However, I also know that you have it in you to heal yourself if you've given the right tools.
Even if you are thinking of meds, don't just see your family doctor if you have one where you are....go to an actually psychologist and I would defidently try to get through things by yourself first before you jump into meds.
I know I don't talk to you everyday or anything and I know that shit kinda always has you down and stuff but I don't think you're at the point where you need meds and it's not something that you want to get into if you don't need them. Once people start on them they usually end up depending on them for the rest of their life. And most don't see anything wrong with that but there is SO much wrong with it. With something like depression...I really feel like once you've been there it always lives inside you in some way shape or form and I know better than anyone that it can come back to haunt you time and time again. However, I also know that you have it in you to heal yourself if you've given the right tools.
Even if you are thinking of meds, don't just see your family doctor if you have one where you are....go to an actually psychologist and I would defidently try to get through things by yourself first before you jump into meds.
It was my girl's birthday yesterday. I hope it was a good day for her. We didnt really do anything cuz she had to go to school today. We went and had a burger and some beers at my work, then we went to buffalo exchange and got stuff. I got a jacket that Im stoked on. it's exactly what I've wanted. I felt bad...
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skzoid:
Yep - too bad there are so many jerks screwing things up for us and we feel helpless. I need to get over this hump (getting rid of the store) so I can discover the next phase of my life.
k_kat:
I was in a shitty mood. Thanks for the lift though. 