Absolutely nothing 
So today is the start of a change. I need change so badly. I've lost myself and anything that gave me drive. So now is time to clean the slate. I was talking to a friend the other day and was hearing her problems. I asked her if she remembers being happy and feeling like herself. She said no. It's like we've regressed into these...
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Im in the process of trying to quit smoking AGAIN. I fucking hate it. I get so stressed out about everything that smoking is my only release. I feel like it's the one thing that I have to keep me sane. What I really need is either a script for bars of valium (seriously) or a vacation to worry about nothing but myself. I think...
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mnislahi:
Hey thats ok.. i knwo the feeling of what u are going though.. im going though that myself..a nd trust me smoking does help and its keeping me sane too. I jsut hope everything works out for you and hell, me too.. goodl luck. Im gonna go smoke too, fuck.
So I failed the fuckin test 
2 months of studying and doing the whole suit and tie thing...plus $450 to fuckin fail. Well, I dont know what Im gonna do about that yet. I was offered the chance by the Head Principal Broker to study and get taught by him in his spare time. It's actually a privilage to have him put that much effort...
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2 months of studying and doing the whole suit and tie thing...plus $450 to fuckin fail. Well, I dont know what Im gonna do about that yet. I was offered the chance by the Head Principal Broker to study and get taught by him in his spare time. It's actually a privilage to have him put that much effort... Read More
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missd:
Man...I am SOOooo sorry about the test. But you are right, it is Awesome of that guy to give you his time...if this is really something you want to do then his is an offer you CANNOT refuse!
Me as a teenager???...ughhh..what a fucked up scene THAT was! I think my Mother believed that to stop me from experiencing any freedom as a teen would curtail my inherant wild side...hmmm WRONG...Enter odd looking 16 year old goth kid, MissD, stage right. Left home at 16, dropped out of college, moved into a squat with my Aussie mysoginist (sp?) 'borefriend'!. Embarked upon a teen angst driven path of self destruction. I was smoking drinking and doing way too many drugs from an early age. Obsessed with boys, sex, party favours & style. Hhhhmmm..., well, with the exception of the drug thing (I no longer partake) not a lot has changed I guess!
...kidding. Actually, I like to think that i am more fun now...probably crazier in certain ways but with a far greater sense of responsibility and priority. I have a very low tolerance for drama these days....being that I experienced so very much of it between the ages of 16-25. For all my faults, I was always very thoughtful toward others & quite the little entertainer !
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Me as a teenager???...ughhh..what a fucked up scene THAT was! I think my Mother believed that to stop me from experiencing any freedom as a teen would curtail my inherant wild side...hmmm WRONG...Enter odd looking 16 year old goth kid, MissD, stage right. Left home at 16, dropped out of college, moved into a squat with my Aussie mysoginist (sp?) 'borefriend'!. Embarked upon a teen angst driven path of self destruction. I was smoking drinking and doing way too many drugs from an early age. Obsessed with boys, sex, party favours & style. Hhhhmmm..., well, with the exception of the drug thing (I no longer partake) not a lot has changed I guess!
...kidding. Actually, I like to think that i am more fun now...probably crazier in certain ways but with a far greater sense of responsibility and priority. I have a very low tolerance for drama these days....being that I experienced so very much of it between the ages of 16-25. For all my faults, I was always very thoughtful toward others & quite the little entertainer ! [Edited on May 29, 2004 9:30PM]
missd:
dammit....why do I ALWAYS do this? (dbl post)
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[Edited on May 29, 2004 9:25PM]
So I have the day off to relax before my test tommorrow. I biked around a bit earlier. The weather is fuckin perfect for a relaxing day. Riding around on my piece o shit bike is cool but definately has me looking forward to getting my new bike. My girl and me have been bike freaks for the last month or so. I like it....
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mnislahi:
skateboard!!!!! and american idol.. i'll be watching that too!! (here gets one day after though ) Im waiting on my hoodie too!! lets see who gets it first 
hahah
) Im waiting on my hoodie too!! lets see who gets it first hahah
So I have my test date for next week. I'm gonna have to crap and pray that I can pass. So much is riding on passing this test. Im really nervous and need a confidence boost and a ton of studying to get me through. The last 16 people have all failed. I dont want to be #17. I look at it this way... If...
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mnislahi:
good luck!! 
i would love to ge italian!!!
i would love to ge italian!!!
missd:
hhmmm...another ethnicity...? nahh, I don't think that's relevent..I'm happy just the way I am, thank you very much!
Hey man, I've got all appendages crossed for you..but I just know you'll do fine. You are sensible, focused and got smartz reeel good! It'll be a breeze
Yeah, the go kart thing was gr8!!! but the drag racing was the BEST!!...should've been about twice as long and even faster, but was still sooooo much fun! es 7 hugz for both you and your pretty grrl 
Hey man, I've got all appendages crossed for you..but I just know you'll do fine. You are sensible, focused and got smartz reeel good! It'll be a breeze
Yeah, the go kart thing was gr8!!! but the drag racing was the BEST!!...should've been about twice as long and even faster, but was still sooooo much fun!
es 7 hugz for both you and your pretty grrl Sup kids. Not much to report. Still doin the club/stockbroker work. I get to work the Distillers show. That should be fun. Im gonna go to the Punks vs. Psychos show on the 6th. Im gonna be stoked as fuck to see Die Hunns and Lars Frederiksen play. Right now Im listening to some AC/DC and contemplating what to snack on. I've decided that moving...
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welcome2thedawn:
yer a silly boy. i looOOOoves me some jacob.
merry:
Goal for the next month = graduate university. Look at me go!
I too have seen the slip on Converse, but they've since been discontinued... I went hunting on the internet last summer, but couldn't find any anywhere. I later discovered some at an outlet store in your neck of the woods, but they didn't have any left in my size. Fuckers.
I too have seen the slip on Converse, but they've since been discontinued... I went hunting on the internet last summer, but couldn't find any anywhere. I later discovered some at an outlet store in your neck of the woods, but they didn't have any left in my size. Fuckers.
Goddamn. It sure as hell has been a while. I moved downtown, Im still being a stockbroker but I just got hired at a cool club as well. Tonight was my first night at work. Death Cab For Cutie played and some other band but I forgot the guys name. Ben somethinenother. He was a good little emo, idie rocker though. I've worked from 8am...
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welcome2thedawn:
i love you sweetie...
missd:
"Current thoughts on SG..it's ok" ????? 
OK??? hey now...come on, where else do you get regular access to hot naked tattooed chicas and get to hang in a cool community like this'un with safe pervs..
Hey sweetness! Thinking about ya so wanted to pop by and bring you some of the hot 'Brit luvvin'! Hope your weekend with your beautiful lady was fun/sexy/productive...fill in blanx...all you desired!
I have started my new job this week...life is crazy busy and will be for the next 6-9 months or so!
See..you couldn't find a job for a while there and now look at your busy young self with TWO! Don't overdo it though. Gotta conserve some energy for the HF...
es to you
OK??? hey now...come on, where else do you get regular access to hot naked tattooed chicas and get to hang in a cool community like this'un with safe pervs..
Hey sweetness! Thinking about ya so wanted to pop by and bring you some of the hot 'Brit luvvin'! Hope your weekend with your beautiful lady was fun/sexy/productive...fill in blanx...all you desired!
I have started my new job this week...life is crazy busy and will be for the next 6-9 months or so!
See..you couldn't find a job for a while there and now look at your busy young self with TWO! Don't overdo it though. Gotta conserve some energy for the HF...
es to you So I've been doin the stockbroker training shit the last couple weeks. Im applying to alot of bars as well. If anything, I think that this job has given me a new more focused direction in my life. Our trainer guy told me something today that will stick with me "There are two ways to success (in general) One is to go out and find...
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mnislahi:
because of blyss here ^ i went through your pics.. and wow u and ur girl are really cute!!
and still i cant look at ur profile pic w/o wanting to have a cig...grrr!
and still i cant look at ur profile pic w/o wanting to have a cig...grrr!
mnislahi:
*lights up a cig*
I just got hired as a stockbrocker trainee... 
I just took a really good test on political-economical views and Im a left-wing economist social anarchist. Not a little bit, but very much. So that would make me an anti-capitalist capitalist soldier. I dont know. All I know is that it's a job. And there's money in it. I will be wearing a business suit 5...
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I just took a really good test on political-economical views and Im a left-wing economist social anarchist. Not a little bit, but very much. So that would make me an anti-capitalist capitalist soldier. I dont know. All I know is that it's a job. And there's money in it. I will be wearing a business suit 5... Read More
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mnislahi:
ugh everytime i see your profile.. i feel like smoking!!!
haha
haha
mislaid:
i miss my kitties
p.s. i'll write you a better comment soon. right now i want to go to bed. night
p.s. i'll write you a better comment soon. right now i want to go to bed. night