So, I got off work from one of my jobs tonight super late, so I was out smoking a cigarette just a second ago and it's 4:30 am. The weirdest shit. Im on the fire escape and the sky lights up in the north. Then an explosion sound...then another flash of light. It's overcast like usual so I couldnt tell what it was. Now, we dont get crazy lighting and thunder storms in Portland. And it being so overcast, for something like that, it would have to be the craziest storm ever. I lived in Florida where they have real storms and this was different. Especially with the lights from downtown it shouldnt have been that bright and the boom shook the earth. Crazy shit. The first thing I thought was "we're getting bombed...WTF?" then "something blew up" WTF? Now Im curious as hell to find out what it was. Im glad I saw it though, cuz it was super exciting. I use to love storms and hurricanes in Florida. They scared you but it was exciting. This reassures me that I need adventure in my life. Excitement and adventure make a life full and worth living. Monotanous, boring, routines of living is just a waste of life. Well, on that note, Im tired and I want to go to bed and hopefully have exciting dreams. Later kids. 
And yeah...that guy fucking sucks ASS but I'm not worried about it anymore. Whatever right...I just hurt me because I'm not that kind of girl like at all. Everyone I've been with before that I've had really strong bonds with and just whatever, you know the story. It was my bad judgement, I rushed into it because we have known each other for a couple years and I thought he was the sweetest guy in the world....but in the end I guess almost every guy is just lookin for a piece of ass sometimes.