jcup

Grumpasourisrex is my official name lately. I want to have some fun or do something that makes me feel good. Everyone seems to be doing other stuff. When I work everyone wants to go out and have fun, when I have time off everyone wants to either stay home, sleep, or do something else without me. Basicly, it gives me the message that Im not good enough for people to put some effort into hanging out with. I know that sounds self-loathing, but why would someone go out of their way to hang out with others and not me? I guess I need to make some time to start doing things alone that make me happy. Solo skate sessions, solo bike rides, and visits to the record store might be what I need. My journals lately have been too whiney. Oh well, I guess that's the way shit is lately though. I am a disapearing boy.