jcup

Had thanksgiving with my girl's family. It was a good time. It makes me feel normal or something going over there. I dont know if it's because they have security and a real home or because they have these routines that make their life seem comforting to be around or something. Whatever it is, it makes me feel more relaxed. I came home and I felt nervous for some reason. Kinda like we dont belong or something. Maybe it was an uncomfortableness more than a nervous thing. Anyways, I think it's just the feeling of wanting security and comfort. In less than a year we're going to have that. I was thinking about that alot tonight. I cant wait to have a real house with real furniture, and not have to worry about rent or the bills. I know that is in our future and I look forward to it. We both need to chill the fuck out and try hard to enjoy as much as we can. Happiness is a state of mind and heart. I think untill our lives start coming together we should try to keep our spirits up and not but it on the backburner till all of that happens. Yeah, Im gonna make more of an effort to be thankful and appreciative of what I have. I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving. Till next time....