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So, basicly nothing happened yesterday at court. I have a court appointed attorney and it's going to trial. It sounds like this is going to be a long drawn out process. At least Im not going to jail right away. Other than that...yesterday wasnt so bad actually. I spent time with my girl, and we just relaxed. We need to spend more time together. I feel like we hardly see each other. I see her for a couple hours a day and then she's at school or Im at work. It's strange to feel lonely when you live with someone. We both work hard, but have nothing to show for it, or have time or freedom to enjoy it. It's gonna be about a year before our life is even close to how we want it. And even then, we will have to start from scratch. It's all about keeping sane and holding each other together till then. I've been trying to vision a goal and imagine how good things will be. It's hard to work hard and keep your spirits up without that. So...here's my goal in a year.

I hope we live in a nice old house in Seattle, maybe in the Queen Anne side of town. Dawn would work at a salon that does extentions, color, and dreads. And I would bartend a few nights at a good club or bar...maybe for the same company I work for now. And I would be enrolled at the art institute. We would have schedules that match great so we could spend alot of time together. We wont be worrying about money and we'll have a ton of options.

Yeah, that's my dream. A new life, in a new place, where we will be happy and live a fullfilling and exciting life together. It's funny how envisioning a better life changes your attitude and gives you hope.