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As I was walking back from the store tonight I was thinking about how my life is pretty good. I mean, when considering all of the things that are stacked against us, Dawn and I do well as far as being happy. I still look forward to better days, less stress, and more freedom. But when I think about how we are trying, working to make things better, and most importantly...not letting bad circumstances affect our happiness, Im amazed and feel very privilaged to have the life I have. It's funny because when I hear other friends' drama and sad lives it makes me appreciate mine so much more. We may have less right now than any of our friends, or even less than we ever have had, but we are mentally and emotionally so much better and it gives me alot of hope for the future. We're a great team. We fuel each other, and keep each other together. Im a lucky boy to have her. Anyways, I just wanted to write what I was thinking right now.

This week I really need to get motivated and make shit happen. Procrastination is my enemy, and Im going to buckle down and get shit done. It's hard to motivate yourself without worry, but it's an art Im trying to master. I find when I dont worry and eleviate the pressure...and basicly do what I gotta do, then things go well. I think that I have nowhere to go but up, it's just Im gonna have to battle alot of shit to get there. It's funny because our family told us this winter when we were at our worst point that being broke and having so many troubles yet sticking it out was going to be a "character builder". At the time I thought that it was bullshit. But my mom said "Ya know...when people stick together through the shit and hard times...it makes them closer and makes them family". She might be right.