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Tuesday Jun 01, 2004

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So today is the start of a change. I need change so badly. I've lost myself and anything that gave me drive. So now is time to clean the slate. I was talking to a friend the other day and was hearing her problems. I asked her if she remembers being happy and feeling like herself. She said no. It's like we've regressed into these shells of who we use to be. I told her that we are very different than we use to be and need to save ourselves because we are like ghosts now. Not just us but far too many people. We use to communicate and know how to love and feel. We didnt consume oursleves with worry, hurt, and dissapointment. We had drive and our whole lives were ahead of us, but now we lost that child-like innocent hope. We use words to manipulate a situation and create fasades. The purpose of language is to communicate but now we use it to hide. Only animals and children communicate for its pure intended purpose. We trap ourselves in our own mental jails. Increase our limitations, insecurities, and doubt. The human mind can conquer or defeat itself. Im tired of being a scorched shell that screams for redemtion or rebirth in my mind but noone can hear. I want the eyes of a child again. I want the hope of a hero and the spirit of a warrior. It's definitely time for a change. Im done. skull

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