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Fuckin shit, grrr . I hate this shitty portland economy. Who's dick do I have to suck to get a job around here? I've applied and put out resume's at hundreds of places. I need money to live. Im not asking to be rich. I just want to be able to pay rent and some bills. I want enough to scrape by or just not sink. I use to think I had money problems. Ha. Worryng about being homeless and how to eat is money problems. We're allmost there. I applied at temp agencies and everything. It just makes me mad that all of these fuckin morons have jobs and Im a good worker but I cant get one. I didnt want to bitch about this, but I need to vent. I've felt for the past few days that Im gonna have a panic attack. I usually do good, but it's fucking rediculous at this point. Well Im gonna do something to get my mind off of this shit. It's nice to vent though. I just hope things dont get much worse. "He cant take no more captn...and Im givn hm all ey got". Well now for the questions=

1)What book that you've read has had the biggest effect on you and how?
(the art of war. It made me see how basicly people are the same as they have been and will allways be and how to understand and use that in my life. Nieitsche's stuff has done the same for me)

2)Would you say that you are a better dom or sub?
(Im definitely dom)

3) Who inspires you or do you look up to?
(I dont look up to anyone but as far as inspires me, my friend Chris, my lil brother Justin, and my girlfriend. Any one who really live life to the fullest I admire as well.)