jcup

I've been thinking all night about how my situation has to change. Watching Fight Club made me think alot, as it usually does. I think it's horrible that most people have meaningless jobs that they dont like yet takes up most of their time in life. It's horrible that most people never do or become what they want. Being another consumer, and a barely alive drone that worries all the time and lives in dissapointment. I find it funny that most of the jobs that I have applied for, I rarely see a person's face least of all get to talk to them. I am a piece of paper in a ton of pieces of paper that they will go through and judge me by. In seconds, from reading this piece of paper they will determine what kind of person and worker I am. They will sum up my worth to them. And will decide if Im worth their time to talk to. Who the fuck are these people who interview. What kind of hierarchy do they belong to? Who are these people to judge my fate of whether I can have the meaningless job they hold over my head so that I can barely get by and not live in poverty? I guess Im just tired of trying so hard for something that wont even make me happy. Im tired of being judged by my bank account, resume, credit history, or "qualifications". This reenforces the fact that I need to go back to college. If Im gonna be judged by a piece of paper it might as well be a degree. ... it's still bullshit. Whatever. Till then...