I had nightmares all last night. I've been in a transitional mood as well. Things are kinda tough right now... so as a result alot of things are coming clear to me. I see that there are things that I need to be happy. Before I didnt know what it was. I see now that I will never be truly happy til I make some steps to clarify and fix things that are keeping me sub-par to my full potential. I have too much fear and worry in my life. I need to change that. I've been having nightmares and thinking of the same horrible things for a long time. It has hindered my happiness and progression in life. I need to unload this weight of burdon. I want to be happy with my beautiful girlfriend and live a happy life. It's possible... I just need to do it. Im nervous, but things need to change. Im glad that they are going to.
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