I've rewrote this journal entry several times due to my extreme emotional state and my inability to put it into words. I am frustrated, mad, tired, and very uncomfortable. I want to leave, vent my anger, destroy something, and say fuck it. Then start a new life again. No ties, no baggage, no debts, no nothing. A clean slate. I feel hopeless about every current situation in my life. I need to go to sleep and be alone and quiet for a while. I want to be invisible to everyone for a while. No communication, contact, or even see anyone. I want to walk amongst a city of strangers that will ignore me and I can just not give a fuck about. I cant deal with anyone right now. I am making no progress with any contact with people right now. I dont want to try, be polite, or hold my tongue for anyone. Then again, I dont want to yell, be mean, or go out of my way to communicate with anyone. I just want to be fucking ignored. 