Fuckin Jesus. I thought that my girl and my lives had enough distractions and obsticles...then comes another one. I am not a happy go lucky person. I'd like to be, but it just isnt that way. Me and my girl are trying very hard to make our lives the way we want them. I think that we just need a fuckin break. No distractions, no responsibilities, no annoyances. I can get over shit faster than she can. I just want her to be happy. I guess there's where my frustration comes from. I would like to make things good for her in every possible way. It reminds me of that "I am, I be" song. The quote specificly is "...so the scenery is healthy where her eyes lay...". That's all I want. Well, off to more contemplation...

