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Round 2, year 2, of me trying to get into school in Portland. Hopefully I'll win this time. Last year, anything and everything that could go wrong went wrong. The good news is that I dont have to hassle with reapplying for school or loans. All I have to do is fill out the new info. I also made less last year, so hopefully my financial aid will be much better. I wish I knew everything that I know now, when I was younger. I would have allready have had a phd by this time. I was never taught anything about how to get into college or get loans or testing. Isn't that why fucking school councelors get paid? I mean, what the fuck did I learn from highschool? I learned how to cheat and skip without getting caught. But, someone should have told me " Hey kid, if you want to get into college you need to start doing ...." Ya know?
Hmmm. Maybe I'm still too bitter about the whole thing. It's just that I feel that sometimes god is just there to kick me in the nuts and laugh. Im not a bad person, but I have the worse luck. I feel like its karma from a past life or something. I'm just waiting for my chance. I seem to learn everything the hard way. Not on purpose though. I try everything, and things dont work. The best my luck gets is when I dont give a fuck. So that's how I've been trying to live my life. If bad shit happens... take it with a grain of salt and just say fuck it. Everything seems extreme when its happening. But when you look back later, it wasn't that big of a deal. Anyways, Im tired and this journal sounds stupid. Fuck it.