Tuesday Mar 18, 2003

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Alot of thinking in the last 24 hours. ALot of being sick as well. The 2 dont go together well. I spent time with a good friend and talked about stuff. That helped. I dont think right when Im sick. I need to work this mood/attitude whatever it is out. I feel alot better than earlier though.
merry:
Damn boy, where you been at? Not glued to CNN, I hope... frown

Monday Mar 17, 2003

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I got sick. I feel sick of everything when I'm sick. Maybe I do when I'm not sick also, but it is more prodominate when I'm ill. I think everyone's grumpiness has finally got to me also. I have to contemplate whether or not I'm a happy person. And if not, do I make the situation that way. I want to be mean and tell...
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Monday Mar 10, 2003

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Sunshine is good. Hopefully warmer temps soon. I had a good conversation with my friend Danielle last night. She came into my work to talk. I havent had a deep conversation in a long time. It's good to have one every once in a while. I think it makes you smarter and definitely challenges you to think. The conversation was about ways to live your...
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Friday Mar 07, 2003

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Getting warmer and sunnier round here smile . It's well needed. Now Im having dreams of skating and partying outside. Looking forward to camping and hiking and being filthy drunk. Its strange how in alaska you dont see hardly anyone during the winter... but when summer comes you see everyone. The ones that left state come back, and the ones that hid in hybernation (like me)...
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Wednesday Mar 05, 2003

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Gonna be working everyday for the next two weeks. Im also trying to find a second job. I figure that if I work as much as possibe during the winter, I'll be doing ok during the summer. I just need to try to get a little out of debt. I'm tired of thinking about money. I need better stuff to think about. Oh well.

Monday Mar 03, 2003

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Just got my paycheck. Its allready spoken for. This sucks ass. I need money. Maybe I should start a phone sex line or something. I seriously need to own my own business. I think I would do great at it, in fact I would say that its meant to be. Its funny because I think of drugdealers as having a better job than most. If...
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merry:
If drugs were legal, the government would probably still make dealing illegal so they could tax the hell out of them and have a monopoly (you know, like how bootlegging is illegal). Anyway, dealing on the side is the way to go... but then again you Americans have some crazy "zero-tolerence" drug laws. In Canada you usually just get a fine if its pot. I hate the fact that nobody ever has K here... whatever

I've thought about having dreads before, but I always hate the way they look on straight-haired white people. Stringy, greasy and unnatural in most cases... besides, I live in a college town which is overrun with hippies, and I wouldn't want people to mistake me for one. wink

Friday Feb 28, 2003

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Just had sex. Correction... great sex. It keeps getting better and better. I bought a toy for my girl the other day. The egg vibrator thing. It seems to work rather well. We were discussing "toys for men". There really arent that many. I think that there should be more. I want to get the remote control egg. It comes with panties. So the gist...
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merry:
The only toys for boys I've ever seen are cock rings with a vibrating attachment, but it still seems mostly designed for her pleasure... I'd be scared to have somebody else in control of vibrating panties... like I can picture myself at a party or a bar or something, and having to run from the room moaning and grabbing my crotch... wink

Damn, it's like love is in the air or something... everybody's all gushy and giggly in love. around here. love
welcome2thedawn:
i love you soooo much. lets run away together and live happily ever after. love

Wednesday Feb 26, 2003

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Im so glad that my bad mood has finally ended. I think alot of it was due to being sick. Im a very antisocial person when Im sick. I finally stretched my ears to a 4g. I know that 4 isnt that big...but my ears arent that stretchy. Actually, all of my upgauges have been difficult. I just have super tight skin. My peircer was...
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lucille:
My ears are 0 gauge. I had a hard time stretching mine too due to tight skin. I'm not quite sure when my set will come up. Soon, I think. I guess you would have to talk to veronica about that.
merry:
Oooo! I can't wait to see a pic of you!

I think I'm gonna invest in some aesthetic thing myself... like my hair has become more Haze than Purple, so I think I need another dye job soon. I also might get another piercing. smile

Tuesday Feb 25, 2003

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I've been in the strangest mood lately. I dont want to do anything. I dont give a shit about much and I show no enthusiasm for anything. Its like Im comatose or something. Like you could cut me open and I probably wouldnt move and wouldnt care. I feel like I've given up on life. Its so strange. I'm just numb to everything. Maybe the...
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welcome2thedawn:
babe, i'm worried about you. what's up? is there anything i can do to help? it makes me sad to see you like this. i still love you!
merry:
frown

You know what you need? You need to engage in some self-destructive behaviour. Like maybe heroin or something.

Seriously though, you sound even sadder than usual. Talk to your girlyfriend, maybe that will help you feel better. If nothing else, remember that spring will be here in 3 months or less. kiss

Wednesday Feb 19, 2003

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I noticed that when I order stuff from taco bell (which I shouldnt be eating anyway) the price comes up $6.66 with like 3 different orders. Its strange. Perhaps I am the antichrist. I wonder how dissapointed a parent could be if their son or daughter was the antichrist. I mean compared to workin at kinkos or being a bar bouncer like me or something....
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merry:
My old roommate worked at Subway when he was in high school, and he said that one time an old lady came in and her order came to $6.66 and she freake out and demanded to talk to the manager. whatever

Biching = good
Blowjobs = good

Don't mix the two, though, or I guarantee disaster will result. wink
merry:
Yeah, trillian is yer basic IM program, except it allows you to run AOL, MSN and ICQ all at once, which is real handy if not all your friends use the same IM dealie. It seems okay so far, except that nobody is ever online. frown

Friday Feb 14, 2003

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Hmm. Valentines day allready. I've been sleeping for the last day. I know Im fucking up my sleep schedule considering that I work nights. I got up at 7 am. I have no idea what to do at this time. What the fuck do people do in the morning? Im sitting here watching MTV valentine shows. Fucking pathetic. I've been feeling very anxious and confused...
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welcome2thedawn:
i love you!
merry:
Many sorries for being so neglectful the last week or so. frown My major is sociology (honours actually, which means I get to write a thesis next year) and I'm also doing a minor in philosophy, for which I have this whole love-hate thing. I have no idea what I want to be when I grow up... actually I want to stay in school for as long as possible so I can continue to hide from Life. smile

I've been spending too much money lately too... I fear my bank balance, but I know I'll have to look at it eventually.

You sound like you need a vacation or maybe even a move.

kiss

Wednesday Feb 12, 2003

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My brother came back after being gone for a while. Only two months, but Im stoked he's back. I love my brother more than anyone else. It's so strange to me to meet people who dont like their syblings or dont talk to them. I think that if there is a reason for me to be on this earth... it's to be with my brother....
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welcome2thedawn:
so, are you taking me with you or what?
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